Reflections By the
Book
I refuse to die.
Stretching my hands across these worlds, these words,
I’ve discovered a new language.
I’m sharpening my axes. Crossing my ts.
My tools are made of molten words and
this bridge I’m building belongs to me.
This bridge I’m building belongs to me.
My tools are made of molten words and
I’m sharpening my axes. Crossing my ts.
I’ve discovered a new language,
stretching my hands across these worlds, these words.
I refuse to die.
One Way Ticket to the
Text
Mija, you can carry home in your back pocket.
Braid sage in your hair, bury yourself in gold.
I’ll always be with you.
But your flight’s in an hour and the other plane has already
taken off.
Safety is stagnation. I didn’t raise you to die without a
fight.
Go. Fly. And when you reach that new land you can
break it down
or
build it up
stone by stone.
I know you’ll do what’s right.
I know you’ll come back home.
Ode to Friendly
Stacks Guy
or
Why Racialization
Sucks
A pretzel
and I have a lot in common. We are both brown. We are both made up of mostly
carbs. My favorite part of my birthday cake is being able to eat my name, so it’s
only natural that my sandwich bread of choice is pretzel.
I’m a
simple girl with simple needs. Every day I go to Stacks, order a turkey sandwich
on a pretzel bun with a little mayonnaise if I’m feeling adventurous. Not a
back breaking order, but still I’ve never found myself beloved by the Stacks’
employees.
Until
you came into my life a few days ago, nice old white Stacks guy with a dragon tattoo.
You're friendly, smile I me when I smile at you, never glare at me when I ask for
Sun Chips, laugh at my order and say I’m easy to please. Finally, I thought to
myself, a sandwich maker who gets me. You even compliment my dresses.
Today,
you took my order.
“Where
are you from?” you asked, so light hearted. If you had a bigger belly, you would make a
good Santa.
“Oh, I’m
from here,” I said, meaning West Michigan. I’m from Grand Rapids, but it’s so
close to Kalamazoo it felt unnecessary to distinguish the two.
“Oh,
really!” he said with a grin, “What state?”
“Michigan,”
I answered, confused. I said I was from here. What did he think here meant?
It wasn’t
until I was loading my cup with pop that I realized.
I’ve
always known it’s wrong to judge someone by the color of their skin. That’s a
no brainer. And it is definitely not something this class has taught me. But it
wasn’t until Thursday that I realized how stupid it was. What made you decide,
nice old Stacks man, that I didn’t belong in the category of American? What part
of my body did you racialize?
My
light brown skin? My almond eyes? My dark hair?
All
traits of my ancestors who have lived here. Who predate your America.
How arbitrary.
How stupid. How did something so idiotic nestle so deep inside you? How did it leave
me staring at my pretzel bun – extra turkey slice and all –
fighting
back tears,
whispering,
I’m from here, I’m from here, I’m from here.
Isabela, I really appreciate how you decided to take creative freedom in your writing. Your poems and your Ode almost opened you up to me without verbally saying a single word to me, and the Ode especially gave me a lasting impression. The mirrored structure for the "Reflections by the Book" poem was a really good choice. I felt as if it caused extra emphasis on the fact that you are building your bridges and that you refuse to die as a person; that you are making your own decisions and making yourself stronger. I especially liked the Ode because it left a chilling effect on me. Being of white descent, I won't ever truly understand the type of situation that you described, but I can imagine that you must be strong because of it. Reading about your experience opened up my eyes to something that I now want to be more aware of, so for that, I thank you.
ReplyDeleteOOP (that's a compliment) Really liked the "break it down or build it up" line in One Way Ticket to the Text. The way that "down" is directly above "up" while presenting it as a choice, "or," made me think about how those are worded differently but are still both creating something new. The choice comes into Ode to Friendly Stacks Guy or Why Racialization Sucks, specifically when you said, "What made you decide." Really gets the point across that racializing something is always active, always a choice to make. KEEP UP THE BEAUTY GIRL
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