Our discussions in class Thursday about
our personal research question made me realize something. As my group
members each attempted to identify their own obsessions and interests
in order to create their own question, I was busy questioning the
question. In order to know what my personal research question is, I
have to know myself. Who am I? I found the discussion difficult in
that there is a paradox that blocks us from receiving a simple
answer. We need to know ourselves to establish a question, but how
can we possibly know ourselves when we as individuals are constantly
changing? We are under a constant barrage of media and educational
topics, and the more we explore the more we expand ourselves. The
self is indefinite, so how can we, so early in our lives, be expected
to establish a question to pursue? It came to me that we can
establish a question as long as we do not expect to receive a
definite answer. Over time the question will change, as will the
answer. It will adjust to our changing selves. It, like us, will be
fluid.
Who am I? I feel like most of us in the
class were, in one way or another, asking ourselves the same
question. In the past few weeks, I have become so focused on Rabasa's
concept of Elsewheres, and that every individual person is different,
that I had forgotten that we as a collective humanity are still
capable of having commonalities. All of us at this point are still on
a mission of self-discovery. We are all learning more and more about
topics that interest us in hopes that we might better understand
ourselves. We share the common journey of self-discovery, searching
for a sense of personal enlightenment. What are we here for? What can
we do? It seems to me that we in this class are all searching for the
answers to these questions. And although it may be frustrating when
we cannot find a definite answer, it is only natural to work through
that stress and continue on.
I wanted to write this to remind
everyone in our class that even as we knock down social binaries,
break through borders of race and culture, and establish that every
individual is indeed an individual, that we are not alone. We are all
on this journey of self-discovery together, and I have been very
pleased to have shared my journey with you for the past 9 weeks. I
look forward to seeing what answers we do find, and how our questions
all change in the future. Thank you, and always remember you do not
journey alone.